he was always there,
always ready to listen,
always caring,
and always loving.
but i neglected him...
pushed him away
and even told him that i didn't care...
all because i was afraid!
but he stayed with me through it all
stayed for almost 4 years
constantly reminding me that he is just there whenever i need him
and promised that he's willing to wait; and i believed him!
then he disappeared.
just when i was about to tell him that im no longer scared
that im willing to risk getting hurt
and step out of my comfort zone
i already love him deeply.
but i guess things got out of control
i might have pushed him too hard
he no longer talks to me
and i finally lost him
never thought it'll hurt this much
never thought karma was for real
never thought the day would come that he will no longer be beside me
and i never thought i'd lose him
and losing him was definitely not part f the plan.
