I did not attend a regular high school but my parents opted to enroll me in a Science High School thinking it was a better preparation for a pre-med program. And of course, to top it all, i enrolled in the top performing science university in the country (University of Santo Tomas) and took one of the "best" pre-med program there is: B.S. Medical Technology.
If in high school I was a consistent honor student, things were extremely the opposite during my college days. Although I did not fail any subjects, I was just hanging by a thread. Things were extremely difficult and I barely sleep, especially during my junior years which eventually led to this thought, "if during my undergrad studies i'm barely surviving, how much more in med school where courses are way more difficult compared to what i'm taking?" This idea scared the sh*t out of me. and thus, resulted in me bidding my, or should i say my parents' dreams goodbye.
But even though I was in crisis about what to do with my life, oh God this is the first time that I'm afraid of my future, i still took NMAT (and i got a high percentile, fyi) and apply to my uni's med school (UST-FMS). But i was unfortunate in passing the entrance exam. Why? Well, there are some rumors that in order to enter this prestigious faculty, you must have a "backer" who'll eventually save your butt and ensure you of a slot; and a backer is what i lack.
I know i said that i'm already in crisis about pursuing med, but not seeing my reference number among the list of successful passers is like being stabbed in my chest and not doing anything about it. It my sound as cowardly but I kinda gave up on Med School already and just want to practice my undergrad and go abroad. sooo, may God's will be done. bahala na.
